I fell in love with a girl at work, but after dating her I realized that I had it better when we were just friends.

My name is Dominic. I was born with a rare genetic disorder that affects my height. I stand at 4'11. It's a really rare condition but it only really affects my stature. I would get bullied mercilessly as a kid, and I was always self conscious about my height. For the most part though I was able to live a normal life and had friends. There were a few instances where things got bad and I almost went through a bottle of painkillers but my mom found them and I had to go to the hospital to get my stomach pumped, but that's a whole other story. <br><br>I'm a pretty outgoing guy though and I've learned to not let it get to me. I’ve done some soul searching this past year, and I have come to the realization that I really wasn’t any better off this way. I thought that the grass was greener on this side and that I was a better person, but in reality I’m still the same self centered, egotistical person I have always been. I still care more about myself than others and I still prioritize my own needs over others. I’m still judgmental and critical and I still gossip and talk shit about others behind their backs. I’m still all of the things that I despise about others. I thought that being this way made me a better person, but I realize now that it doesn’t. I’m still a piece of shit person, I just have more free time now. <br><br>This may sound counter intuitive, but I'm being completely serious. I thought that I had to change who I was in order to be happy and have more free time, but really I just needed to shift my perspective and change the way I view the world. From now on I’m going to go back to being all of the things I thought I had to change about myself in order to be happy. Being a piece of shit is so much easier than being a better person. Thank you for listening to me.