Make fun of me, shame me, and call me a loser, I don't care. Let me tell you a story about why I thirst trap.

Hello, I am a f40 who is having a good time with her 3 remaining years of being moderately attractive. I work out regularly, and have lost a lot of weight, so I'm feeling more confident in myself. <br><br>I get to travel a lot for work to other countries, and I typically have the weekends to myself. The guys I meet on the road, particularly in other countries, seem to be pretty interested in my body, which is nice. I am pretty overweight still, but I have big boobs (d cups) and a nice booty, so I guess that's where the interest is. When I first started being an adult, I had no thirst trap pics of myself because I never really liked my body that much- so I have a lot to make up for.<br><br>I'm not naive enough to post pics of myself because I want loads of hot guys to message me, but I do it because it makes me feel good. I have positive thoughts about seeing all of these hot guys who want to talk to me, and I feel confident in my body. I'm not interested in the guys who message me, so I don't really engage with them. I just go through my day feeling pretty good about myself. I think it's kind of fun and I don't feel like I'm hurting anyone.<br><br>Make fun of me, shame me, and call me a loser, I don't care. Let me tell you a story about why I thirst trap.<br><br>I've always been what you would call overweight. I know guys on this thread don't care about women and think we are all fat and ugly- so I'm sure you have a hard time imagining a woman can be anything other than that, but I was considered a "fat girl" growing up. I didn't have many boyfriends and I wasn't popular in school, and I didn't find out about my weight until I was 10.<br><br>I was an outgoing kid- I was in sports, did musical theater, was always hanging out with my friends in our neighborhood, etc. I was always active, and I was always having fun. I remember when I was 10, I was in my gymnastics class, and we had to do our end of the year recital. I remember being so excited to have my parents come and watch my routine. When the show was over, there was a potluck where all of the parents were hanging out and talking. I overheard a parent talking about how sad it was that I was fat. My parents never told me that I was overweight before, so I didn't know. I just thought I was built differently than other kids. I remember going home and asking my mom if I was fat, and she said I was, but it didn't matter. I remember feeling so ashamed of myself, and I never forgot that feeling.<br><br>I started getting made fun of for my weight all the time, so I stopped hanging out with my friends, playing music, and doing sports. I stopped doing everything, and I would spend a lot of time at home, eating and watching Netflix. <br><br>When I was 14, I started to want to kill myself. I was so sick of being ashamed of myself, and I just didn't want to live anymore. I didn't really have any friends, I was kind of a loner, and I was so exhausted with being overweight and ugly. I just didn't know how to change it. I didn't know how to do anything about it, other than try and kill myself. <br><br>I went to a school counselor to talk about my feelings, because I didn't really have anyone else to talk to. The counselor told me that I needed to stop focusing on myself and go out there and do things for other people. She said I needed to volunteer, and get a job, and find a sport or a club that I could join- anything to get me out of the house and interacting with other people. She said I needed to focus on other people and stop focusing on my weight. I did what she said, and I started to feel a lot better. I found out that focusing on other people made me feel so much better, and I didn't care as much about my weight. I started to make a few friends, and I started to enjoy myself again.<br><br>I'm 43 now, and I've been volunteering for the last 30 years. I volunteer at animal shelters, hospitals, nursing homes, and I do anything I can to help other people. I focus 100% of my attention on making other people happy, and I find joy in it. I don't really care that much about my weight anymore, and I've learned to accept it and love myself. I have a nice home, nice friends, and a good career. I'm not really interested in any romantic relationships, I've been in a few, but I just don't care that much about it. I've learned to be happy by myself, and I've learned to love myself.<br><br>That being said, I am enjoying my time posting thirst trap pics and making dudes thirsty. Don't worry about it, I don't plan on dating or hooking up with any of them. I am enjoying my time making them thirsty, and I am enjoying the confidence I have in my body. I'm overweight, but I know I'm attractive, and I'm going to enjoy the attention and confidence I have, while it lasts. If I stop being attractive, I'm not going to care. I'm just going to keep on enjoying myself, and making dudes thirsty isn't going to stop anytime soon.