My husband is a hitman.

I know this is a popular post type on this platform but here goes.<br><br>My husband is a hitman, I've known for about a year now and I'm okay with it. It honestly doesn't bother me that people are being murdered for money, I haven't been able to pinpoint why exactly it doesn't bother me but I know it's a bad thing in the grand scheme of things. <br><br>What bothers me is that it makes our lives harder. People are naturally nosy so our friends/biggers circle is tiny. I don't like it when he doesn't tell me the truth a out things, like where he's going or for how long, or who comes to the house. We can't have any devices with cameras around, which kind of ruins my photography hobby and keeps us from building a home we can actually call home.<br><br>This may be the craziest part to some people but since he's actually a belts champ and has always had a pretty strong moral compass, I don't actually see him as a bad guy for his job. I see him as a bad guy when he's cheating on me which, in comparison, makes me question why I put up with it. I don't know if I would advise anyone's wife to do what I did though.<br><br>Last year when I found out he was a hitman I didn't know how to react. I had a pretty ridiculous and dramatic thought where I wanted to burn all of his stuff and tell everyone I could that he was a murderer (it isn't illegal where I am, it's just immoral, apparently). But the more I learned and the more I asked the less scary it seemed. It's actually fairly regulated and he's treated his clients fairly so there's little risk of trouble. He's never gone overseas which means there's no risk of ICE finding out. It's a pretty safe job.<br><br>After I got over the initial reaction and learned more, I realized I didn't have a whole lot to be mad about. I just knew I couldn't leave him either way. I don't think I would have been able to live a life of complete honesty with someone else. <br><br>The longest he's ever been away at a time is six months. Other than that, you would never know he was anything other than a gym bro who works some 9-5 job. He's always been home for dinner and he never misses our weekends together.<br><br>It's actually pretty funny when people ask him what he does, because he used to say he works for the government and now he tells them he works for the CIA. I've never met anyone who has believed that for a second, it's really fun to hear them try. <br><br>We had a little bump in the road last month when a U.S. agency found out what he does. Luckily though, the people who run the CIA in our country have connections in the hitman world, and they have some rules against targeting our belts-champ friends. The CIA people only targeted his business partners, who were not pleasant people by any means, and now my husband has contracts with the CIA that no one is allowed to bother him.<br><br>I'm sorry this post doesn't end off dramatic or crazy, or really at all. Life is weird.