I’m Russian and I feel ashamed of our actions

I’m not sorry for Ukraine. I’m not a fascist or a supremacist. This is terrible. I feel shame for our country. I will never admit to this in public because it can get me fired, but I feel terrible about what is happening. This is terrible. I’m not a baby eater, I’m not insane. What’s happened to our world? I’ll end up dead if they find out what I think. I’m not brave enough to die for Ukraine. I’m not a demigod. I’m a human who believes we are equals. I feel terrible. I feel shame. I feel pain for what’s happening. <br><br>The truth is I know hundreds of good people like me. We are afraid to speak up in public because we know if we do it will be worse for us. We know if we don’t speak up either that it will be worse. We’re stuck in a prison of fear. We can’t come out and admit that we support Ukraine or the Ukraine people. We can’t admit that we don’t like fascism and we don’t like supremacists. If we do it will be worse for us. We have to live our lives. We know if we report what we’re seeing online it won’t change anything. Our government will just say it’s Western Propaganda. If we admit to supporting Ukraine they will take everything we have and we’ll be homeless. We can’t fight, we have families and careers to keep up with. We have to live our lives. I can’t even post this without being worried someone at my work will see it and think odd thoughts about me. I feel imprisoned.<br><br>I feel horrible. I feel pain. I feel shame. I can’t talk about this with anyone. I feel terrible. I’m afraid if I admit to this out loud they’ll take everything away from me. I’m scared to death. I feel horrible. I don’t know what to do. I feel terrible.