I think I've killed myself

About 10 minutes ago I ingested an amount of ammonia sufficient to kill a moose and then cut an artery in both wrists I feel fine currently just feel like shit I don't think I'll be feeling alright for much longer I said goodbye to everyone I care for, I don't regret anything but I do wish I'd gotten to see my baby get growing I wanted to see her first smile I wanted to be there when my husband finally finds a good job I wanted to be there when my daughter learns to play basketball I wanted to see my son's face light up when he graduates I wanted to see my daughter learn to read and I wanted to see my youngest learn to ride a bike I wanted to grow old with my husband I wanted to come home to him after a long day at work I'm sorry I've ruined my children I'm so sorry I've ruined my husband I'm sorry