POV: You are an Israeli soldier living in the North of Israel, you hear the sirens and you hear the explosions. What do you think?

So this is what I would think:<br><br>That Israeli flag I proudly wore on my uniform now is stained with the blood of children, and it makes me sick to my stomach.<br><br>I never thought I was defending a democracy, I knew it was something else, something worse. I was defending something more sinister.<br><br>I protected this country from the children and families it kills everyday, children and families who were there while the European racist settlers came in and killed their families and took their land. <br><br>I am a monster. <br><br>What do I do?