I hope she’s ok idk what to say

I don’t know what to say or what to do, so I am going to come here and vent<br><br><br><br>My phone rang a bit ago and I maintained a bit of hope for a bit but that’s gone now, it was a telemarketer <br><br>My 12 year old niece has been missing for three weeks. We all assumed she was with her mother even though she had been gone for weeks but yesterday we found out she hasn’t been as of 2 weeks ago <br><br><br>I feel so guilty because I always thought her mother was neglectful to the point of abuse. I should have done something, I should have done more to try to get involved or at least tried to convince other family to, or at the very least I should have talked to CPS and social services about her. <br><br>I have an autistic son and I’m a single parent so I don’t have much but we have been hit with a ton of stuff in the last year or so so I haven’t been able to do much of anything for anyone else, and I didn’t think she would actually let her go this far, I was wrong.<br><br><br>Her father passed away suddenly this year, I really don’t know a lot because I don’t have much contact with her and haven’t really had much contact for awhile, but my brother did tell me that her daughter is taking it very badly and she recently started cutting. <br><br><br>This is really the first time they’ve really said anything to me about what’s going on, because they knew I would go all in to help, so I really didn’t know how bad things were for her. <br><br><br>I’m so mad at them for not saying anything and for not doing anything to help, I can’t tell her to do better when I myself didn’t do anything to help. <br><br><br>I’m so fucking angry and so fucking worried, I just want her safe and ok. <br><br><br>I’ve been sick to my stomach for the last 24 hours not knowing where she is or what happened to her. <br><br><br>I’ve been crying so much but at the same time I feel really numb and hollow, idk how to explain it all I can think about is her and how I can still help get her back, idk what’s going to happen but I know I am going to fight for her to have a good life no matter what, this is probably going to be a really hard road ahead but I’m going to try. <br><br><br>Sorry if this is a bit confusing there’s a lot going on and I’m all over the place.