I lied about my gender to get a cool girl to sleep with me

I’m a bio female. I started chatting to a girl on tiktok, she added me to a group chat after a day or so, and then she started flirting with me, and we moved to one on one texting. We talked for several weeks and I fell for her, and I got nervous about coming out to her because I hear lesbian/bi women saying women are less intimidating but I was the opposite. So I messed around with she/her pronouns and stuff and when we finally met up and had sex I told her that I often feel feminine and never identified as a man, but more androgynous. She was so understanding and never made a big deal about it. I was so swept up in the moment, and it continued for weeks. I remember her being so patient and understanding, and even reassuring me when I was freaking out. She was so sweet and had this warm glow around her, and I was so caught up in being in love with her. I didn’t even know I liked girls I was just obsessed with her and I think I used the fact that I liked her to make it seem cool to like girls and I think deep down I knew it was wrong, but I was too caught up in the moment and too swept away to stop myself. I don’t even feel feminine, and I think I used that to describe myself because I didn’t want to admit I was a woman. I don’t even know what the fuck I am, and I don’t think she even knows. Anyways. I came out to her when I was in the shower as “bi” and she was really sweet, and I think it really broke something inside of me. I don’t know if I’m bi, I don’t really like girls. I like her. I don’t care about anyone else. All I know is I’m a woman, and I love this woman to the bottom of my heart, and I think being in love with her and knowing it for so long and not being able to acknowledge it was taking such a toll on me. I remember going through so many different phases trying to distract myself from it. It’s my fault I convinced myself I’m bi and after a while I don’t know if it was convincing myself or just believing what I wanted to believe because I was so infatuated with her, and I think it was for the better, but also for the worst. I confessed to her and she told me not to worry about it, but I feel so bad and I don’t know how to get over it. I don’t know what I am, but I know I love her more than anything and I couldn’t even have the decency to come out to her, and I don’t know how to come to terms with it because I miss her so much.<br>tl;dr: I came out to a girl as bi when I don’t think I am, and she was so lovely but I was so caught up in being in love with her I lied to her and I feel bad and don’t know how to come to terms with it.