I'm a 2nd generation closet incestor and my baby sister (14f) is the one that made me want to try incest

I used to think me having sex with my baby sister Audrey was a sick and selfish thing to do. My 2 moms are polyamorists. They've had a woman named "Auntie" Kali as their lover for over 20 years now.<br><br>Kali grew up with my moms. They've been friends with her for nearly 40 years and are actually *all* related by blood. My grandpa married Kali's mom, after Kali's dad died in a car accident and he cheated on my grandma, which eventually led to their divorce and my grandpa raising Kali with my moms. (My grandpa wasn't a good dad, but as a kid I loved him a lot.) My moms got together when Kali was about 15 years old.<br><br>I used to think incest was gross, but mom and "Auntie" Kali would constantly remind me that they're polyamorists. So, they made a pact with each other to make sure it was always "queer" when it came to family. I found out that my moms fell in love with each other in high school. They were fighting over mom's little sister Eva (who Kali reminds me a lot of) when they were 15 years old. Eva was Kali's age when my moms first met her.<br><br>My moms and Kali always had sex together. All 3 of my moms even had a child for the 3 of them to parent together. I have an older brother who is biologically Kali's son and my moms both decided to be his moms. He's 28 and has been in the military for over 10 years. He only comes home once a year and has his own son. My moms did a really good job raising him and he respects the polyamory dynamic they have. So do I, up until now.<br><br>My moms didn't raise me with that same love. I got less attention than my big brother. They prioritized him and Kali's relationship more than us. Kali was sent to boarding school out of state when she was 14. She didn't even get to raise her own son the way she wanted. She married this dude from high school after getting pregnant. My moms convinced her to let them raise him but she didn't want to leave her son anymore. So, they said they'd support her decision and be there for her, but Kali moved out and never came back. She grew up with nothing but did it all on her own. They never forgave her and tried to exclude her after that.<br><br>When I came along, Kali and my moms got back together and decided to make polyamory work for them and their son and me. So, I'm Kali's bio child. My moms raised me with Kali, but more as "Auntie" Kali. I've always known about the polyamory dynamic and incest was never off the table for them. My moms had threesomes with Kali all the time, even when Kali married other people.<br><br>But I was always jealous and never felt like I had enough love. They were so proud of my big brother and gave him so much attention. They always ignored my feelings and told me to just be happy I had them. I wasn't enough for them. My moms never hugged me or gave me attention. They said my big brother was a better son. That made me feel like the relationship with my moms was unequal.<br><br>For the first time in my life, I feel like I have someone who actually cares about me. There's a HUGE age gap (10 years) between me and my little sister Audrey. I never really saw her as my little sister. She's always been the girl I'd do things with that I couldn't do with my moms. Audrey's the only one I confide in. I've always felt a strong connection to my little sister Audrey. She's the only person I've ever loved.<br><br>When Audrey was born, I was 3 years old. I was told that my big brother was supposed to be the big brother and I was supposed to be the little brother. So, I had to give up being the baby now that they had a real baby. My moms loved Audrey more than me and treated her better than me but I never felt like I had to compete with her the way I did my big bro.<br><br>I loved Audrey. I remember the first time I saw her as a newborn. I asked my moms if she was my new baby now and they said yes. I didn't like that at first, but when I held Audrey in my arms and stroked her hair and kissed her cheek, I loved her.<br><br>I was never allowed to baby her the way I wanted. My moms always treated me like a baby and made me do chores around the house. I hated doing chores. It made me feel like I was nothing. I tried to stop doing chores, but they'd lock me in my room for weeks at a time, which made me feel even more worthless.<br><br>I'm not sure at what age I realized I was gay. I grew up with girl friends and guy friends, but I didn't have my first serious boyfriend until I was 19. He broke up with me after 3 months and I never dated again. My moms didn't support my relationship and told me I needed to grow up. I started ignoring them after that and became more minimalist.<br><br>My little sister Audrey is the one person I confide in. She always helps me out. She's very mature for someone her age. When she turned 18, we went to the beach together for 3 months. My moms didn't even care that she went away with me. They barely paid attention to Audrey when she was growing up. They didn't even know she was gay until I told them. But I loved Audrey and I didn't care if she was gay or bi or hetero. I loved her no matter what.<br><br>Audrey has this long blonde hair that falls down to her hips. As a kid, I always loved playing with her hair and doing it for her whenever she wanted me to. She has blue eyes and the most beautiful smile. Whenever she smiles, I always feel better. I never thought of her in a *sexual* way, but I realize now that she's the only person I've ever thought about sexually.<br><br>My moms and Kali are very attractive and fit. They've worked out their whole lives. They're all very beautiful and take care of themselves. My moms are in their 60's and look like they're in their 40's. They're still very fit and active. I didn't get those genes, so I've always felt like I let my moms down.<br><br>I'm 5'11 and 190 lbs. I'm 24 and look like I'm in my 40's. I hate my body and feel like I look ugly. I'm not attracted to myself. My moms always say I'm not good looking enough and that I need to take better care of myself. That's why I try to stay at home more and do things that don't make me feel ugly.<br><br>My moms are very critical. They've always been critical of me. My big bro was always good looking. He's a model and gets more attention from my moms than I ever did. They're always talking about how proud they are of my big bro and never say anything about me. My moms did everything for my big bro and expected me to do things on my own. I felt ignored and disrespected whenever I tried to talk to them or ask for advice. They never cared about my feelings.<br><br>I always felt really jealous of my big bro. He got everything he wanted from my moms and Kali. He got to live with his 3 moms and have them do everything for him. He got to take his time and do whatever he wanted at his own pace. He was always good looking and got attention from everyone but me.<br><br>When I had my first boyfriend, my big bro started calling me gay. I tried to stop him, but he'd just laugh and call me a fag. I stopped seeing my big bro after that. My big bro got married to a woman when he was 24 and they had a kid together. He talks shit about gay people now and gets upset when people say "queer" instead of gay.<br><br>My moms started being more critical of me after my big bro started calling me gay. They didn't like me kissing guys. They thought it was gross. I told my moms that I wanted to break up with my boyfriend and they told me to go for it. So, I broke up with him and never dated again.<br><br>My little sister Audrey is the one that got me to stop caring about what my moms thought. She tells me I'm attractive and that she loves me no matter what. She's always been my best friend. I started ignoring my moms and stopped caring about their opinions after she said that to me.<br><br>I realized I'm gay because of my little sister. She's the one person that I'm attracted to. I started ignoring my moms after she told me that. I felt bad for Audrey because my moms ignored her when she was growing up. Audrey's the best person I know. She's very honest and always tells the truth. But my moms always ignored her.<br><br>I realized I wanted to try incest with my little sister because of my moms and Kali's relationship. They've been together for over 40 years. They've always had sex with each other and they're always happy. My moms and Kali are very attractive and hot. They're always having sex with each other. I realized I wanted to try that with my little sister. Audrey's very attractive and fit. She's always been honest with me and told me she's gay too.