I cheated years ago and it haunts me everyday

I (38F) cheated on my husband (39M) 10 years ago and I can’t let it go. It haunts me everyday.<br><br>My husband and I were trying to conceive for 5 years. I became really depressed and felt hopeless. I was upset at the idea of never being a mother and also felt I had “finished” with my husband. He was still wanting to start a life with me and I couldn’t see it. I met a guy at work who was nice and got drunk with him one night and went back to his place. I never planned on doing it and deep down I always planned to go back to my husband and have his kids. I told my husband immediately but there was nothing he could do about the hurt. He agreed to therapy but after 6 months told me we needed to grow up and move on.<br><br>Our therapist told me I had a mental issue that caused me to cheat and it would never happen again which also made me feel embarrassed and ashamed. My husband and I now have two beautiful children and I truly love him. I’ve never been happier. But that night still haunts me everyday. I don’t tell anyone about it except some of my closest friends. I don’t know why I can’t let it go. It haunts me everyday.