I’m married but I would love to have incest relationship with my brother

My 18 y/o brother is visiting me (29) and my husband. And I had to admit that I have been this close to have incest relationship with him. I have been married to my husband for almost 5 years and I have been open about my “incest desires” to him for 4 years. I have been thinking about incest since we came home from high school because my brother started to look so good in my eyes. I didn’t know what to do with this. It’s probably because of that “forbidden” theme but after years of keeping this inside, I had to tell my husband. He’s okay with it. He doesn’t judge me because he cannot judge people.<br><br>When my brother came, I hadn’t seen him for almost 2 years. My mom and dad got divorced when I was 11 and my brother was 3. My mom took me and my dad took my brother. I have 3 siblings but they have other moms. I live abroad and I was born in a different country from where I live.<br><br>My husband picked my brother from train station. The moment I saw my brother, I immediately knew that my mom knows. Her eyes were telling me “I know” but she knows about my “incest desires” for a long time. She is very open person and she gave me this look sometimes when we were kids. I asked her 2 years ago and she said that she knows how I feel. She doesn’t judge me, she only says that I should be careful. <br><br>So my brother came. At first, we were just doing casual stuff. Then I started to change how I dressed up. I didn’t want to be too obvious but I wanted to make my brother notice me. I made it obvious in front of him. I wore glittery make up and heavy perfume. One day, I came out from my room in bikini, I had my hair in a pony tail and my back was bare. My husband was sitting in the living room and my brother was sitting on the floor. When I saw my brother, I wanted to touch him, I wanted to sit next to him. I was in bikini but he didn’t say anything. Then I sat next to him but he didn’t say anything. That was the moment when I realized that my husband and my mom knew what was going on but my brother didn’t. I wanted to kiss him so badly. I felt like doing incest for a long time but I couldn’t do it. I wanted to touch him but I saw my husband in front of us. I was stuck. I couldn’t do anything. My brother didn’t say anything. He is shy boy and he is a gamer. He is not a player like me. I wanted to call him to my room but I was scared. How would my husband react? Then I saw my husband’s face and he was smiling at me. He looked happy, like he wanted me to do something. I wanted to do incest with brother but I didn’t have the guts to do it.<br><br>He has been staying at my house for 3 weeks. I have been thinking about incest for the whole time. I realized that I’m married but I want incest relationship with him. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to hurt my husband and I don’t want to lose my brother. The moment when my feelings are out, there is no way to come back. I realized that I want to do incest and my husband is okay with it. But I don’t have the guts to do it. It’s so scary. I’m always nervous. I always blush. I’m always happy when I think about it. But I don’t know if my brother wants it too. My husband is okay with it but how he will be okay with it when it actually happens? I don’t want to lose my husband either. The only thing I want is incest. But I’m too scared to do it. I want to open up but I don’t want to make my brother uncomfortable. I don’t want to lose my brother. I also don’t want to hurt him. I just want to do incest with him. I want to share our happiness. I love him more than my husband. I want to do incest with him.