I gave up my last kid and I feel free

I was 20 when I had my son, I’m 26 now. <br><br>I was 16 when I lost my mom due to a drunk driver. That changed me a lot emotionally and mentally. <br><br>I was physically, emotionally abused as a kid so my childhood wasn’t great either. <br><br>I never knew how to love properly, I knew how to be a caretaker and not me centered at all. <br><br>I had my son at 20. I didn’t know how to be a parent at all, I struggled so much. He was taken from me when he was 4, I was unable to take care of him properly, struggled financially, mentally, physically, every aspect was just bad for us to be together. <br><br>It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make but it was for the better. <br><br>I was able to get my life together after I gave him up. I’m now thriving, not only financially but with my mental health as well. I’ve started going to college again, I’ve made friends. I feel free. <br><br>My life is actually what I wanted it to be, before I had him I was in such a dark place, now I get to flourish. <br><br>He’s 10 now, and his new family is amazing for him. I think I did what was best for him. <br><br>It may not be best for women who give up there babies, it wasn’t for me. Giving him up was best for him, and now I get to thrive.