I stole 10k worth of electronics from Walmart

I stole like 10k from Walmart electronics but never go there. Theft started when I was kicked out of home and my sister and mom were the only ones who saw me with no home as a kid kicking me to the streets. It was survival and stealing back then. I still stole to get by but I will stop. I started stealing to eat as a kid with my mom and sister. Nobody picked me up. I had to do it to eat. I got arrested for shoplifting. They put me in jail and gave me a court date. I did not go to court. I got another charge and court date. I did not get caught for stealing for a long time. I got arrested for possession because I used the money for drugs. I miss my daughter so much. I miss my dad. I will stop. I will go to the list of shops that banned me and I will do something crazy to seek my happiness and get rid of my words within me that I need to steal.