My husband admitted that he didn’t expect anyone to want to fuck a 42 year old woman when he asked for open marriage

He (45m) and I (42f) have been married for 10 years (Together 20). I look like a person who just hit 42 in a very literal sense. <br><br>I gained and lost weight through out the years. I had short stretches of hitting the gym. I always Shave the hair in my head because it looks nicer that way and I just don’t like the way I look my hair grow out. I’m not a very pretty person. <br><br>My husband use to have a very high sex drive but the past year it has greatly decreased. We tried lots of tricks such as going to the gym but nothing worked. We had a couple of talk about seeking professional help but so far nothing has worked.<br><br>This past week of him feeling guilty that he hasn’t touched me for a while. He mentioned something to me on a joke manner if I would be open to being in an open marriage. Something that I have never been ok with. I let him know very clearly very quickly that I’m not ok with that. He then admitted that he never expected anyone to want to fuck a 42 years old woman.<br><br>It hurt his huns authenticity hurt me. Why would I want to be with someone who sees me as old? Why would I want to let anyone else see me as old? I felt grossed out by the entire conversation. No wonder he didn’t think anyone would want me because he doesn’t want me. Despite his admission I still feel the reason he is distant from me is because he doesn’t find me attractive.