I’ve been lying to my husband for the past 8 years.

My ex and I were friends for a while before we started dating in college. When we started dating we had a discussion about what kind of sex we wanted to have, and what we didn’t. My ex said he didn’t want to have any types of sex that wasn’t “normal”, which at the time I was cool with. He didn’t seem all that interested in sex anyway, and we always fought a lot. <br><br>Then I met my current husband. We talked about everything before we started having sex, and immediately had to order a restraint set so I could tie him up. It was like a whole different person, so turned on and sexual. He told me to tie him up however I wanted, and I had a lot of fun. We explored other things as well, and I finally felt appreciated by a partner. <br><br>And I haven’t wanted to explore anything else since. I don’t really know why. I love sex, and my husband gives me so much pleasure. I just don’t want to do anything else. So I don’t. <br><br>The reason I’m posting this is because my husband asked me why I don’t want to try all that stuff. I told him I just didn’t, and he was okay with it. But later he asked again, and told me he was a little disappointed. I was like “okay, I’ll try it!” And he was so happy and turned on. <br><br>Now, when he’s feeling turned on he’ll ask me to tie him up, or do something else, and I’ll do it. But I don’t really like it. And when we’re done he’ll give me the big hug and kiss and tell me how much he loves me for doing it. And I don’t really mind. I love him, and that’s what’s most important to me. But I still wish I felt as desired by him when we were just having normal sex. <br><br>I feel bad that he’ll only be sexually satisfied if I make him feel like I’m being forced into something I don’t want to do. But I don’t want to hurt his feelings.