My partner came out to me as trans and I’ve been ignoring him for two weeks now

I wish I knew how to feel about it. I support trans people obviously and I was always proud that my partner was such an ally because we thought he was cishet. <br><br>I don’t know how I feel now. My head hurts so much. I’ve basically been ignoring him for two weeks since he told me. I’m pretty sure he’s hurting a lot. I feel like such an asshole but I’m scared. I don’t know how I feel and I don’t know how to talk about it because I’m scared to sound transphobic. I’m just so worried that my whole life has been a lie. I’m scared because I never imagined being with a trans person and I’m just so confused.<br><br>He messaged me the other day asking if he could tell his family and was he still allowed home. I said yes and said that I needed time. I said I still love him and I’m just trying to figure out my feelings but I don’t know how I’m ever going to be okay with this. He got married to a man before we got together but he said it was just because of the money. I’m starting to feel like I’m going crazy. Was I ever his type? Am I only here because I look like a specific gender? <br><br>I know this post doesn’t make much sense. I’m just so hurt and confused.