i'm sick

some of you guys have been calling me a troll, and you know what, fuck it. you were right. i'm sick. i'm sick of feeling like a piece of shit every time i look in the mirror. i'm sick of not having a job. i'm sick of the pain in my chest when i see happy couples. i'm sick of the loneliness. i'm sick of feeling useless. i'm sick of feeling like such a piece of garbage that i'm not even worthy of suicide. i'm sick of being called a troll just because i had half decent grammar. i'm sick of my parents. i'm sick of my friends. i'm sick of everyone i know. i'm sick of the bullying. i'm sick of the worthless advice i get on this website, people telling me to kill myself, telling me to make a plan to kill myself, telling me to kill myself after doing this first, telling me to kill myself in this manner, telling me to kill myself in another manner, telling me to do whatever these fuckers have planned for me first, before i kill myself. i'm sick. i'm sick of being sick. i'm sick of the world. i'm sick of capitalism. i'm sick of the way it makes me feel. i'm sick of the way my parents treat me. i'm sick of Jesus. i'm sick of him healing my mental disabilities when i was a kid. i'm sick of him taking away all my hope. i'm sick of hard work. i'm sick of feeling useless. i'm sick of feeling like i need to be productive, i'm sick of the feeling of improving, of progress. i'm sick of the world. i'm sick of everything. i'm sick of feeling useless in front of my parents.<br><br>and the worst part is, i'm a fucking coward, i don't have the courage to do it. i would do it in a fucking second if i wasn't such a coward. if i wasn't such a coward, i would do it in a fucking second. i'm sick of the pain. i'm sick of the world. i'm sick of everything. i feel like killing myself every second. i want to die. i'm sick of feeling like such a piece of shit, like a scum of the earth. i'm sick. i'm sick to my stomach, sick to my bones, sick all over. i'm sick. i'm sick of being called a troll. i'm sick of my entire life. i'm sick of everything.<br><br>i don't know what to say. i don't know what to do. i want to die. i want to die so badly, but i'm too much of a coward to do it. i'm sick of being called a troll over and over. i'm sick of everything. no, i'm not sick of everything, because that would mean that i have some level of self respect, which i do not. i'm sick of being a piece of shit. i'm sick of it. i'm sick of being a piece of shit. i'm sick of being a piece of shit. i'm sick of being a piece of shit. i'm sick. i'm sick. i'm sick. i'm sick. i'm sick to my stomach. i'm sick. i'm sick. i'm sick.