A 30 y old woman wants to go to Tokyo by herself

Tldr: I want to go to Tokyo to try to become a better and more confident person so I can catch another plane in January with my husband.<br><br>Edit: I also want to thank everyone who has given me advice and wishes. I am overwhelmed and very excited to see what other adventures await me.<br><br>So my husband and I have been together for 11 years and we have always been catchers for each other. Yes, one always chances the other, but in our case it's more of a constant interplay. We are both very different people. I'm more anxious and he's more impulsive. I'm more organized and he's more spontaneous. We've been married for six years and a few months ago I realized that I might be too much of a homebody when I told him I was happy he was home from work and I never really needed to take time for myself. I never went to a restaurant or a movie by myself. I never met a friend by myself. I never did anything by myself. I always wanted to, but I never had the guts. <br><br>I went to college, studied, graduated, found a job and became a teacher. I have been quite successful in my career as well so I might be called a grown up woman, but in many ways I am not. I don't know what I would do without my husband and this makes me anxious.<br><br>So my husband decided to take a break from work and go to another country to work in a monastery to find himself. I am jealous. I wish I could take time for myself too, but I miss him. He will be away from August to January. I am very excited about visiting him in another country and he told me I could take a week off, rent an apartment near him and we can spend some quality time together. We are to old to stay in a small room with ten other monks so he will stay in an apartment and I can visit.<br><br>But I don't want to be home by myself all the time. I want to experience new things. My husband is quite the adventurer. He went to Brazil during Carnival and worked in a hospital in Africa. I am not. I am more of a Dora the explorer kind of adventurer. I want to experience something new, but I want to do it in a safe way. So I decided to go to Tokyo by myself. My husband is very supportive. He called my family and told them about it. My parents were horrified and my father was angry. He doesn't like to talk to me right now. We argued but I told him that this is what I want and I am old enough to make decisions for myself and that I would come back home when he wants me to, but I won't cancel the trip.<br><br>So I am going to Tokyo by myself. I called the travel agency, got a hotel and a flight. I will be there for one week. I have been to Tokyo once with my husband and he was always by my side. He is Japanese and speaks the language so it was a lot easier and we had a great time. But this time I am alone. I might go to an onsen, I might catch a train to Nikko, I might hike to the top of a mountain, I might visit a lot of temples and shrines, I might go to Denny's for breakfast, I might go to the Tokyo Tower, I might sit in a different park every day, I might eat Udon, Sushi, Tonkatsu and Ramen, but mostly I want to get lost. I want to get lost once a day and try to find my bearings. I want to be scared and learn to be brave. I want to be homesick and try to find a new home. I want to imagine that I am 19 and just moved to a new city to go to college. I want to imagine that I am 23 and moved to a new city to work. I want to imagine that this is my new home. I want to see what I am capable of. I want to be alone. I want to find myself. I want to make new friends and meet new people. I want to be happy. <br><br>So I will go to Tokyo on a plane by myself, I will get lost and find myself, I will be scared and become brave, I will be homesick and find a new home, I will be alone and find myself and I will be happy. I will find a new friend every day. I will learn to be confident and I will be able to go on adventures by myself. I will explore the city in a new way that I never got to experience. I will be a tourist and I will be a local. I will love my husband to death, but I won't miss him. I will be happy and then I will come home and I will be happy. I will be ready to get on a new plane with my husband in January and explore a new country together.<br><br>Edit: My parents called and apologized so I might have called my family too early when I told them, but I was so excited that I had to call right away.