I came to the conclusion that I really don't care if I'll ever have a relationship

I used to be awful to my family and friends, I was so bitter and angry. I blamed every single one of them for my loneliness, and I hated everyone. I don't know if it was because of all the "mental illnesses" that I have, or maybe it was even my environment.<br><br>I don't know how I suddenly changed, but I became more chill, and I can look at these people, without hating them. I'm much more polite, I don't behave like a typical incel that he is a burden to everyone. I used to be a burden to others, now it's the opposite, I became a much more reliable person, everyone is happy to have me in their lives.<br><br>I'm warm towards my family and my friends. I know I hate the world, but I know I'm also part of this world, and I have a role to fulfill. I've even started to help others, I've helped people with their problems and I even helped people get jobs. I don't have a job yet, but I want to help people have what I don't have. I know I'll get there too, I've started to help them because I've learned to help myself.<br><br>So I don't think I have anything to be angry about, I have people to talk to, I'm a good friend and I have a family that loves me. I'm still a virgin, but I think I can live with that, and I hope I'll die a virgin.