I’m so fucking sick of seeing what America is becoming with no concern for anything other than my own ass. I’m moving as soon as I graduate to escape it but I feel so helpless that I can’t do more to help

I’m graduating this May and I have been accepted into a great program in Dublin. I’m ready to exit this shit hole and start a new life. But I can’t help but feel so fucking useless. My parents bought my way into this program, I won’t deny that, but it also means that I have no loans to pay off or huge debt that comes with graduation. So I’m fortunate in that respect. I have enough savings to comfortably survive the next few years as I start to grow my career. So many of my fellow classmates are in a terrible position. They have loans they can’t pay, some have kids they need to support, and many of them are in low paying positions that will take years of hard work to get to a respectable wage. <br><br>Which is why I always thought I would continue my education over there to any graduate or possibly even PhD programs to not only better myself but to give others the opportunity that I will have been taking up a spot in. However, last night I was talking to my parents and they told me how unhappy they would be if I didn’t go straight into work. My mom even suggested that I grant one algebra lesson per week to a student, which absolutely none of my concerns about giving students like themselves a bad impression of Americans would be alleviated as they would probably assume I’m taking time off from work to do this and hate me for it. <br><br>And it just feels like my parents and some of my fellow Americans only care about their own ass. They don’t give a shit that there will be one less Americans going into a master’s program in an up and coming country. There are plenty of comments online of Americans being gross nationalists and only caring about themselves. And here my parents are. I would be a Diplomat between the two countries, goddammit. I would be a bridge between the two. <br><br>But I feel so fucking trapped. I have no say. I’m a mere child that needs to listen to my superiors. I have no money to throw away, so I’m stuck doing what they want. I want to care about this country still, I do. I want to defend my fellow Americans, I really do. But I just feel so helpless and grossly underappreciated. I want to make a difference, but I have to do what my parents want. <br><br>I feel so fucking gross. I’m just going to sit here in my room crying at the sight of the American flag. I want to burn it, but I’m outside my country so I don’t have any access to one to light on fire. <br><br>I’m so fucking tired of this shit. I just want to help this country, I want to be a better person. I want to care. I do care. But I just don’t know what to do. <br><br>I feel lost. So lost.