I didn't want to be right

I was the person everyone was saying was just being a pussy, that I didn't have the balls to do it, I was a bitch, a wimp, etc<br><br>Well, just to prove them wrong, I went through with it, and i have no regrets<br><br>I am now 2 days clean from a failed suicide attempt, and, for the first time, I can actually say with a straight face that I am glad to be alive<br><br>I am going to a mental hospital in a week, and I am truly going to make my life better<br><br>I am going to leave my door unlocked at night, I am going to go on dates, I am going to do everything I have been afraid of, and I am going to make myself happy, because I am tired of suffering, and I am tired of being scared<br><br>Fuck whoever told me that I was just chickening out of the easiest solution, fuck whoever said that I was weak for not pulling the trigger<br><br>They were wrong, and I am now certain that I am going to thrive in this world<br><br>I hate the fucking people who told me that, and I hate that I was stupid enough to listen to them<br><br>I deserve better, I am going to make myself better, and I am going to be stronger and smarter for it<br><br>You motherfuckers were wrong, and I proved it by surviving