My dad sexually assaulted me

I'm a 15 year old girl, this happened to me when I was around 12 years old.<br><br>My family was staying at a hotel for a week, one night my mom left the room and went out with her boyfriend, and my dad and I was staying there. At first I was a little scared, I didn't like staying with my dad, I just got my period for the first time and it was all weird for me, but he came and told me to relax and he explained everything to me, it was super sweet and at the time I didn't find it weird.<br><br>But I felt like he wanted to touch me in a weird way, his hands always kinda hovered over my body, but he never touched me, then he left and I was super relieved. I thought he was going to get ready for bed so I didn't have to share blankets with him again.<br><br>He came back into the room naked, it was super weird and I didn't know what to do, I felt so ashamed, I kinda lowered my head and looked down, but after he touched me I felt like something was wrong, it was so awkward, he rubbed my head and patted my back then I heard him telling me that I should try to forget it, I pretended to be asleep and he left.<br><br>I really don't know what happened, I feel like he was so close to raping me, but he didn't, he just touched me for a second before he left. I just don't know what was going on in his mind, and I never felt so humiliated and hurt, that he thinks it's okay to do these things.