I just found out that my husband has been heavily drugging me

I’m writing this as soon as possible because I’m in danger. My husband and I have been together for six years, and he’s been the best thing in my life. We married six months ago. Everything is just 100% perfect, he makes me feel like a queen, he always thinks about everyone else, he’s wonderful. I thought we werecommunicative, but maybe I just didn’t want to know the truth. I was doing the laundry and found a needle hidden away. I thought maybe he used it for something, so I put it back. Then I remembered a day trip we went on last week, where I had been really sick. I asked about the needle, and he said he had a doubt and got a new one from the pharmacy so he had drugged me withbenzodiazepine. That made sense why I was so sick the day after. I asked why he had an old one, and he said he had others too. He was very open and explained how he had been drugging me with them for some time. I went through our last several weeks photos, and several times his arm was in the pictures, and he was injecting something. I confronted him immediately and he was very open. He had been doing it for a while, he got them from his friend who sells medication. He said he had it because he needed to control my mood. I had been depressed since I quit my job five months ago, and he had been supporting me and saying he enjoyed being able to take care of me. I asked why he was still doing it now that I wasn’t working, and he said it was because he wanted to make sure the drugs wouldn’t wear off during the night, so he wouldn’t have to worry about him waking up in the middle of the night. I was disgusted. I asked through a benzodiazepine is it and he said it was a mix. I wanted to test it, but he said it wouldn’t show up as anything. I’m absolutely certain he’s been spiking my water. I’m going crazy with anxiety and fear, and am too scared to work out what drugs he’s been giving me. I know he has done this in the past because I’ve had strange memory blackspots. Sometimes I can’t remember anything for months. I looked up long term benzodiazepine use side effects and that’s what it is. He’s been spending a lot of money, and when I asked him he said he’d sold some of his and my car parts online, but I’m certain he’s been selling drugs with our money. I don’t know what to do. I am completely trapped. I feel like I betrays him if I call the police, but if I don’t I’m going to be his lab rat forever. I am his lab rat. I don’t even feel like myself anymore. I am his druggled wife. I’m an experiment and I don’t know what to do. I am his drugged wife. I don’t feel like me anymore, I am his druggled wife. I’m his drugged wife - I don’t feel like me anymore. I’m his lab rat, oh God. <br><br>Please, I really need advice. I am his drugged wife.<br><br>Edit - I’m on a break, not divorced yet. It’s the best I can do for now.<br><br>Once again, please, I really need advice.