I'm not going to let myself feel guilty and bad about not wanting to be a mother.

And I know a lot of men feel the same way. I know I've been to therapy for my anxiety and depression and I am not capable of dealing with a child. I am not emotionally stable, I barely take care of myself in that regard. I know I've said this before, but I feel like a child myself. I am someone who frequently has suicidal thoughts because I don't feel like I am good for anyone. I'm not going to risk my baby having a depressed and anxious mother. I want my child to have the best possible life, and that means me not being their mother. It's a hard pill to swallow and I'm still trying to get over it. I've loved babies since I started babysitting at the age of 13, I've always been good with my little cousins and other kids that I've been around. It is hard for me to swallow that I am not a good fit for being a mother, but I don't want to be selfish and have a child when I know I am not a fit parent.