I didn't want to break up with my bf, but my mom's pushing me.

I (19) found out that I am pregnant about a month ago. The father (20M) and I have been together for two and a half years, but have been separated since I found out I was pregnant. I found out that I was pregnant right after school started this year. It's been very hard. My bf is about an hour and a half away from my house, and my mom won't let me go there by myself because of the baby. She won't let me stay with him because of school. I have to stay with her since I can't afford anything on my own and I'm not 18 yet. I told him I couldn't see him, and he cried. He told me he understands but I feel like I'm giving up everything for my mom's wishes.<br><br>My bf is a full-time college student, he works and he is in the Army. He is a hard worker. He takes care of me when I visit him, he makes sure I'm fed and comfortable. He also buys me gifts when I visit, even though I tell him to stop. He takes care of me emotionally, he listens to me when I'm stressed, and I talk to him about my day a lot. I love him, he's very good looking, he's kind and he's funny. He's overall a great person to be around.<br><br>When I found out I was pregnant, I didn't want to have the baby, but my mom told me that I have to have the baby and take care of it since she won't let me get an abortion. I know she doesn't want a baby in the house, but I don't really have a choice. I live with her, so there's no way I could even hide having a baby. I was told that my bf would help me raise the baby, but now he's not really talking to me. I feel like he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.<br><br>I love my boyfriend and I miss him so much, it's been a month since I saw him. I miss him everyday. I want to go back to him, but I feel like I'm stuck with my mom. She doesn't want me to see him, she doesn't want me to have the baby, she doesn't want anything to do with the situation. But I have to listen to her. I don't know what to do, and I don't want to break us up.<br><br>I'm so tired and upset, I want to cry. I feel like my whole life is being ruined over my moms wishes.