Boy? Please, the only question is whether I'll be the one to commit the suicide or not.

Does this mean I'm trans?<br><br>No. I am disgusted with the idea of having my own dick.<br><br>Strap on? Even more disgusting for me.<br><br>Want to be a man? Can't think of a worse hell.<br><br>Hormones? They should have different treatment.<br><br>Am I male aligned? Not even considering the fact that I was born female, no. Even if I was born male, I'd be as far from the 14th rule as possible. What a disgusting goddamn protocol. *No wonder men think of themselves as the superior sex - they literally institutionalized the emphasis on manosphere.*<br><br>But why do I feel like I'm constantly pretending to be a woman? I hate dresses, skirts. The only dresses I liked were those with simple white blouses and neck necklaces. Yes, I prefer the top half of a *man's* dress. How about makeup? I never did it and I'd rather die than do so.<br><br>And jewelry. Do I like it? Nope. I like to wear a couple of times a year.<br><br>My gay guy friends says I'm raised wrong as a woman, that I am tomboy. I'm not. They have an interest in makeup, skirts, dresses.<br><br>I am a person.<br><br>Nothing more than that.<br><br>No social construct that should stop me.<br><br>No gender roles that should limit me.<br><br>I'm tired.<br><br>I'm tired that people judge me whether I am a Tomboy or a stupid girly girl.<br><br>I'm tired of the gender roles that are imposed on me.<br><br>I am me.<br><br>Strap on? No.<br><br>Suicide? Maybe.