My husband doesn't know how to parent.

He doesn't know the first thing about how to take care of children. He doesn't bathe them, he doesn't feed them, he doesn't change diapers, he doesn't soothe a crying baby. He completely ignores them unless they are screaming, which makes them stop crying for a minute. He has awakened our children by playing loud music and watching TV in the middle of the night. He has yelled at our kids. He has yelled at me because I stayed up all night to nurse or breast pump and he was angry that I couldn't wake up. He didn't change diapers when I was out of wits the next morning. He didn't make me breakfast so I could feed our daughter who was nursing through her ear canals at the time. He didn't clean the nursery for the last 6 years we've lived in this house. He didn't make sure the baby could see us when she started trying to look at us as a toddler. He didn't make sure she was safe when she started walking. <br><br>Our daughter is scared of him because he's so mean to her. I'm scared of him when he's mean to our daughter or to me. We have no friends anymore outside of McDonald's playplace or the library. He has yelled at me in front of our daughter, in front of his parents, in front of my family. We have had counseling for years and he says he doesn't have a problem with the kids. I'm starting to think he never loved me or our kids and I know none of this is my fault. I've been suicidal the last few years because of how he treats me and the kids, but my daughter was the only reason I woke up in the morning. I just don't know if he will ever change, if our daughter will ever have a father who loves her, or if our kids will grow up to hate him and be ashamed of their family.<br><br>I just wanted to vent a little here.