It's so close to the finish line

I'm close to 30. I'm pretty average looking, skinny, but I get my stuff done. I managed to get a degree, get a job, get a crappy apartment. I earn above average. I managed to make some friends. I even managed to get 500 followers on Tiktok. <br><br>As a child I really wanted to have kids. My parents are divorced and I hate it. I barely talk to my dad and I live with my mom. <br><br>I wanted for my kids to have both parents present. I wanted my wife to stay home with them and I'd take care of us. <br><br>I'm pretty sure this won't happen. I've been single my whole life. I had a few FWB, but nothing serious. I don't have the money for a wife and who'd marry me? <br><br>It's so close to the finish line. I managed to get by. I managed to basically be your average guy. I know I'm not attractive, yet it hurts me so much, I can't complete my journey, I have no woman to share it with, no kids to leave it to. <br><br>My life is meaningless.