What’s the most dead you’ve ever felt?

This is a tough question for me to ask. I’m currently in a month’s worth of the worst inner-physical pain of my life. So I’m reaching out. What led to it? How did you get through it? What advice do you have for me?<br><br>I’ve struggled with depression on and off for years. I’ve been sad over breakups (like how can one be so sad?). This time I’m just dazed and weakened by pain. I’m going through a mental health crisis, and I’m not sure how to survive it. <br><br>I’ve been prescribed naltrexone, and it’s not really working. I’m going to a therapist, but I find myself so down and broken that I’m not in the mental state to address my issues head-on. So I’m just trying to survive. <br><br>I’m constantly in pain. I can’t sleep through the night, and when I do sleep, I wake up to what feels like a gut punch that goes deeper into my heart. I can’t exercise, and I’m withdrawing. I’m not eating well, and I’m sad enough that I can’t see the point of caring. I’m not suicidal, and I’m happy for all these little things in life (people say “find the beauty.”). There’s beauty, but the pain is so fucking deep.<br><br>So what worked for you? How did you get through it? I don’t like feeling this way. I’m happy when I’m high, but I’m not happy enough to live a happy life.<br><br>Thanks.