from a 26f perspective: your chick friends are more like you than you think, we're the enemy too

so i'm 26, have always been ugly, never had sex, never had a relationship, never had a date, never had a boyfriend, i've never even been kissed.... never even had a guy say a nice word to me in my life, in fact 99% of the time when i walk in a room.... it's like i'm invisible. so yeah, i'm blackpilled and i knew it would be this way. <br><br>i always thought that if chicks were in the position men are in they'd be a lot nicer, but the closer i am to a lot of my girl friends, the more i realize we'd do the same thing if we could.<br><br>the only reason i've made it this far without having some major mental health crisis is because i've never had any expectations for a lot of things in life..... including relationships, i always knew i'd be alone, in fact i always thought being single would be better so i wouldn't have to worry about anyone.... this way i could just live my life however i wanted.<br><br>hy are there chick friends i've made that are a lot more attractive than me who complain about their love life, or their relationship? we're all in the same boat, it sucks. the only thing i'm glad about is the fact that i'm a girl and i get to live my life in private, i don't have to worry about being judged for something as simple as walking down the street, i don't have to worry about people saying nasty things to me just because of how i look.... or worry about being hit, which has happened to a chick friend of mine.<br><br>it's all perspective, at least you get to live your life in peace, while people attack you because of jealousy..... i have to live a life of solitude, the only difference.<br><br>i recently had a guy friend i was "compatible" with be mean to a girl because she was "ugly"... and i felt so bad and sad about the whole situation..... i'm like "dude.... she's just like me, and you're treating me like a person and her like dirt.... why?"<br><br>i feel like if chicks were in the same position we'd be the same way.... we'd judge and discriminate the same way, so even the idea of the genders switching positions makes me angry. i don't think men and women are too far off, maybe men are a little meaner, but we can be mean too. <br><br>i don't know, i just wanted to say my piece, i'm done.