Don't have your dealer over for dinner

I've always got a good laugh out of the meme "don't bring your work home" but, this is one of those places where it is good advice.<br><br>I've been spending some time with this guy who has become a friend, but I'm worried he's going to start taking money in exchange for drugs. It's bad enough knowing he's been selling drugs, bad enough knowing he also uses more than I am comfortable with, but if he decides to, and I have a bad day and say yes to a little weed, I can see myself getting into a situation where I'm in a bad headspace and also have access to more drugs than I should have.<br><br>I like this guy a lot. He's been a good friend, but I really don't want to end up in a situation where I am going to need more drugs to get through the night. I don't want to be the one taking the drugs. I don't want to be the one with the drugs. He knows I've been trying to spend less time drinking and doing drugs, and I'll be damned if he isn't going to be the one to try to get me to stop in the first place.<br><br>I don't want to get high with him, I don't want to drink with him, I don't want to do anything with him that is going to make it harder for me to stop doing those things. I want to be his friend, but I don't want to be friends with him when he's being my dealer.<br><br>I'm going to have to have a talk with him, and I know he's going to be pissed. But I think it's better to lose him now, than it is to lose myself later.