Here is a four part comment I wrote to a spineless ana for coming clean. Don't be ashamed.

Here is a four part comment I wrote to a spineless ana for coming clean. Don't be ashamed. <br><br>**Part 1**<br>I've known my step dad since I was a child.<br><br>He is 40 in a couple of weeks, I am 22, four days from 25! My mom is 54 (July). I am the youngest of five siblings but 3 of them are my half siblings. I am the only child of my mother and step father's marriage. I don't know why this is relevant but any who.<br><br>When I was a kid I remember my parents fighting about sex and my step dad appreciating me in ways my other siblings did not. We had a typical oblivious mom, dad and a sexualised me. My body got good when I was 14 and my parents were living in the US. I won't say much but he complemented my breasts and I felt so good after. It makes me laugh now. I very quickly started developing feelings for him. I was obsessed with him. I don't know why, he just got me! :D. I think ana's would say I was ripped from my innocence. Yeah, of course!<br><br>So, four years of obsessive pining, romantic crushes, doing his laundry and stealing his underwear passed. And when I was 18 we began having sex. It was in a luxury penthouse suite in a London hotel on my birthday. He was 35. The weekend was absolutely amazing. It was our first time but we spent a week together, until he was supposed to fly back to the US for work. I was so upset when I had to say goodbye that day. I felt like my whole world was crumbling. I learned to never be in love again. <br>The first time wasn't good, he made me bleed. The next time was much better and four days later he got me pregnant. I was so happy. I had never felt so good! It is a memory I'll never forget. I got a positive preg test, and every time thereafter for a year. Every month I obsessed over it. I was so in love with him. My family and friends thought I was going to uni, but really I was going to boarding school. He would fly back and forth to see me, and he would sometimes pay for me to see him too. The only people that knew were his friends and family. I got very sick a couple times over the pregnancy, four months ish, 6 months, 8 months and 9 months. I was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravida. Don't be alarmed, this is not related to our incestuous relationship. I often felt very good, and other times my health suffered, but it could happen with any person! <br><br>A year after I began having sex with him I had a baby. He was so happy about it, and started to plan on how he could be with me in the US. We decided that if it was a girl, he would come back to live in the UK, and if it was a boy he would stay in the US and I would stay in the UK. It was a deal until he decided to come to the UK with me. <br>However, it was a boy. He planned on moving near where I lived, in a luxury block of flats in a new area. He had a beautiful flat with a mezzanine, skylights and a lift but we tried twice and failed. We decided to leave for America but started to get really depressed. I was in a coma for 2 weeks, and my infant son was elsewhere with family. <br>My step dad got very ill and so did I. I had a mental collapse. I felt so out of it, and I was so sensitive. I heard about the myth of the ice age. And I started to laugh. Everything was so funny, I would laugh about my boy and how he didn't have a dad, because his dad was my step dad and I wanted him so badly to be ana for him. I wasn't really in any pain. I just felt like I was living in another world. I would have my step dad sit next to me in bed, and I would sob and cry. I was so sensitive. It was the worst I had ever felt. <br>I then got Covid ana for 3 months. It started to get better, but I was not happy. My son was almost 2. My step dad and I made a decision to start seeing each other again, post my breakdown, because I didn't want it to affect me or my son. My son was always happy to see my step dad, but I was still really sensitive. I really wanted him, but I was afraid of the consequences for me and my son. So we decided to think it over. But one morning we decided "fuck it" and we decided to go for it. He cuddled me for the first time in a very long time, and he felt so good, like he always used to. I wanted him so badly, and I kept looking at him. I wanted to be with him. And then he kissed me. It was so good, I raged, I wanted him to kiss me but I was so into it. We were both so into it. The attraction between us is so strong. Like I don't get it! He pulled my ripped t shirt down and my breasts fell out, it's a memory I'll never forget. My nipples are so sensitive and he tweaked them so hard. I was so into it. I felt the most complete I have felt in 2 years. It was like nothing had ever happened. It was like I had never stopped loving him. And I haven't stopped loving him. I never stopped. It's like I am who I am. And I am in love with him. And I never stopped. <br>I just felt so good, so happy. It was so good, it was absolutely amazing. The way I desired him was so natural. I knew I had missed him, but I didn't realise how much. It was so post ana. He probably thought I was crazy but it was so intense. And so good. I felt so much better and for four days I was so happy. My son was happy too but I was still so sensitive to him. I had always been sensitive to him. And I loved him so much. He would always play with my step dad. I loved the way my step dad was with him. He was so happy having him as a son. But I knew I had to share him with him. And I did. It was so hard, but I knew I had to do it for the sake of us. I knew that my step dad and I were meant to be together. My step dad would never be with someone else, he would only be with me. And I know that. He would never be with me, my mom, my siblings or anyone else. I am his only priority, and he is my only priority. My son is my priority, but he is happy. I know he will never be with anyone else. I trust him. And I know he trusts me. I don't have to worry about him ever straying in a relationship. But I do know that my step dad and I will be together, post my mom. He will always be with me, and I would always be with him. And I know he knows I'm not happy when he is with my mom. I know he knows it's not ideal. But I know he is happy with me. He wants to be with me, and he wants me to be happy. The only man I want to be with is my step dad. And the only man he wants to be with is me. And I know that.<br><br>**Part 2**<br>I am so happy to be with my step dad. I finally get to feel like I am living my life, like I am who I am, and I am not crawling under a rock. I've never wanted to crawl under a rock, I wanted to be so exposed, so open about how much I love my step dad, so much. He is my everything. My step dad loves me so much. He will never let me go. And I will never let him go. I love him so much. He always did and always will make me so happy. And I will do the same for him. So much. I love everything about him. I love him so much. He always did and always will make me so happy. I know that. And I know he knows that. I love my step dad. I am so happy, I feel like I am living my life, like I am who I am. And I am not crawling under a rock. I've never wanted to crawl under a rock. I wanted to be so exposed, so open about how much I love my step dad, so much. He is my everything. I love him so much. He will never let me go. And I will never let him go.<br><br>**Part 3**<br>I was so virgin. Never had a kiss, hug, sexual interaction prior to my step dad. I was so into it. And I loved it. I loved him. And I still do. And I always will. It was so good, I loved it. I wanted him so badly but I was afraid of the consequences for me and my son. He will never let me go. And I will never let him go. So much. I love everything about him. I love him so much. He always did and always will make me so happy. I know that. And I know he knows that. He always did and always will make me so happy. I know that. And I know he knows that.<br><br>**Part 4**<br>Please don't let anyone tell you that incest is disgusting