I'm done

I'm 29M. I've been looking for a wife all my life. I wanted a girl I could marry, have children with, and live happily ever after. I was starting to lose hope. Then a few years later I met my first girlfriend. I was over the moon. We were together for a year, but then I found out she was cheating on me. I was so heartbroken that I wanted to kill myself. I went out with a few more girls and actually had a one night stand with one of them, but no one wanted to be in a relationship with me. <br><br>I recently met a girl at work. She was very beautiful and my heart raved just by looking at her. She told me she was single and we started dating. She was very nice to me and made me laugh. We still work together, but we didn't reveal our relationship to anyone. She was so caring that I thought I was in love with her. I was so happy that I didn't even need to sleep. I thought my heart would jump out of my body. I never felt this way in my life. I wanted to marry her, have children, live with her, and die together. <br><br>But now I'm alone again and I feel so empty inside. She didn't want a relationship and she just used me to get laid. I asked her why she was using me and she said it's her turn to do so because men have been using women for centuries.<br><br>I no longer believe in love. I'm done.