I just realized that I'm actually autistic and I have some questions about...expressing my feelings towards my twin sister.

So, the social worker told me that I have autism. And that's why I'm having a lot of trouble communicating with people. It's really hard for me to talk clearly and make friends. <br><br>I don't know how to tell my twin sister that I love her. I know that she's really pretty and I've always felt some weird urge when I look at her. Sometimes I want to be close to her, but my brain doesn't help me express my feelings.<br><br>I've thought about her so much that I can't sleep. I've imagined so many things about us. I think that she's the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. She has a lot of friends, and I worry that I won't be able to be with her.<br><br>Sometimes I think about doing something bad if I can't be with her. But I really love her and I don't want to hurt her. I just want to express my feelings to her. Does anyone have any advice?<br><br>EDIT: I've read some of the comments here and I'd like to clarify that I'm not saying autistic people are prone to sexual violence. People on this thread seem to take my message in the wrong direction... I just meant that my social worker said I have autism, which likely explains why it's hard for me to express my feelings to my twin sister. <br><br>Yes, I hinted at something very dark. It's true that I've fantasized about her a lot, but I meant that kind of obsessive thinking is unhealthy and can't really be considered "love" anymore. <br><br>I love her and want to be with her, not hurt her. I'll spare you the details, but that's why I've been seeing a social worker. I wanted to get an advice how to express my love to her. It's really hard to talk to girls, I don't have any friends. And I don't know how to make friends with them.