Is it wrong of me to not want my partner to hold me while I’m throwing up?

So I have a pretty common issue with food and I can’t eat certain things and my stomach hurts when I eat other things and I feel sick. It’s also been a really long day today. I know this, I know the signs and I know what is wrong with me. I just feel sick. I’m also not tired, so I can’t sleep. I’m tired but I’m also frustrated with myself for not being able to eat food, and not being able to sleep. I’m also anxious. <br><br>I know I should eat something but I’m afraid that I will just throw up again. I feel sick, I’m tired, I’m frustrated, I’m anxious, and I’m angry with myself for not being able to eat food, and not being able to sleep.<br><br>I feel like I’m stuck in a vicious cycle of anxiety, frustration, and anger, and I don’t know how to break free.<br><br>So, I’m just going to stay up all night and hope that I can get some rest eventually. Maybe I’ll try to meditate or do some yoga to help me relax and calm my mind. I know it won’t be easy, but I’m willing to try.