Can’t even say how much I miss my sister

I haven’t seen my sister in 4 years. We were 17 and 19. I went to college and she was still in high school. She’s the only person who ever held me when I was crying. The only person who could comfort me. I was so dense before I left college I never realized my deep attraction to her. I was so intentional about separating myself from her, even though deep down I think I’ve always wanted some deep emotional relationship with her. She was my best friend, but I wasn’t interested in her because I was closeted. <br><br>Now, I am in huge regret, and I wish I could go back. I hope I can see her again. I hope I can build a relationship with her. I hope she’s been well. I hope I can be with her someday.