I know my child is not mine, she doesn't feel like mine & I don't want her

My experience of motherhood was shite, I know that's not normal but I know that I wasn't just having a tough time. She also is not like any other of my kind's children, in the sense that she is not an extreme version of my personality. Instead she is everything I am not. She is lazy, I am driven. I am very sensitive to light & temperature, she is not. She is not creative at all, I am artistic. She is very spoiled, I was not. She is not empathetic, I am empathetic to a fault.<br><br>She does not resemble anyone on either side of my family. I am starting to doubt whether I am actually her mom or not.