Did you ever wonder, how did you get this far Part 3

I got a message in my inbox and got me thinking. Why did I make it this far when others who are obviously better genetically than me aren't. A friend of mine, didn't get any taller than 164cm and is quite ugly, he's had two major accidents in his life already and he asked if I didn't wonder how did he get this far. I was curious about his take on my idea and he said that he often wonders that with me too. He's always worried about my mental health and how I can get through some of the stuff that I do. I wondered myself, why am I still alive and he's not. Why am I not in a car crash and why did I get this far. I truly don't know. I don't think that's in my control and it's not my decision to make. But I wonder how people haven't gotten this far in their lives. Why are people so brave and how do they pull themselves together? I know that there are people who've been through a lot more than me and are still alive, which amazes me. I can barely cope with my life already, but they can cope with their lives and whatever life throws at them and they still manage to do stuff. Manage to make friends, get a job, get married, have kids etc. manage to do all the things that a person is supposed to do. Which I'm barely clinging onto dear life, I'm barely able to do anything. I can barely go outside and get stuff on my own. But there are people who are so much worse off than me and they're still doing stuff. Which I just find so brave. I know that life isn't easy for everyone and they might be hiding their struggles. But how do people manage to put themselves together like that? I look at my friends and I'm like how are they able to do it? How are they able to get things done? To manage to do things on their own. I can barely do anything, I need people to support me and remind me to do things. I don't know why I find it so amazing, but I want to be that way, I want to be where they are. I don't want to be stuck away in my house forever.