I went on a bender with my addict girlfriend, after that she encouraged me to go cold turkey but now I feel like I'm dying

My girlfriend of 6 months and I were getting high together these past few weeks. She doesn't drink anything but every morning she uses heroin to wake herself up. She recently introduced me to heroin. We would do it together sometimes but I think she was doing it alone anyway. <br><br>Last Sunday I began a heroin binge with her. We did heroin, then after every high would wear off we’d go out and find more heroin. We did this until Thursday, when she decided to stop. I don’t think she was done simply because she was out of money but she was actually done because she said she was sick of it. I however was not ready to be done, but she was so strong willed and she said she wasn't going to let me go out and find any more, and so she held me at her parents house for a day and she even stayed over at mine last night. <br><br>I feel like I’m dying. I feel like JESUS CHRIST I feel like I’m dying. I still feel like I’m dying. Every muscle hurts, I have chills, sneezing fits, diarrhea, and none of the medication she offered seems to help. I’m fucking dying. I can’t even go on a fucking walk without finding a place to sit. I just want to feel okay. I don’t give a fuck at this point if that means I need to get high. It’s 3am on Saturday. I’m not sure if the dealers are out at this time but I’ll see. I’ll do anything to feel okay. I thought I was okay at first. I thought I was fine yesterday but being up and walking today made me realize that I wasn’t okay. <br><br>I just want to feel good again. I just need to feel okay.<br><br>I just wish she was still high with me.