I wish my parents wouldn't have put us on birth control so quick. I'd want a child with my brother

I am 25 and my brother is 28. We were both raised in a conservative, religious household.<br><br>Growing up, I was never around boys with the exception of my brother. It was strictly girls, and I was told I couldn't be friends with boys. We were fed lies that boys were the enemy and that they were just going to "take away my innocence." My parents weren't allowed to be around men either.<br><br>When we were about 14, my parents started talking to us about sex. They explained to us sex was wrong without marriage and that we should stay smart and make the right decision. However, they did say that if we did choose to have sex, it would be best to be with family. I don't think they were serious about it, but it did make sense. I'd rather be with my brother than some stranger that could hurt me.<br><br>So this is our story:<br><br>When I was 17 and my brother was 20, we met in secret at a park. We sat together, talked for awhile, and then we decided to do it. We had sex in his car in the backseat. I was so nervous, but we decided to be safe. He wore a condom. It was my first time, but I loved it. I felt so much better afterwards, and I was so proud of us for doing it. I felt so happy and content.<br><br>After that, we would meet up several times behind my parents' backs. We did this for several years. When my brother was about 24, he asked me to move in with him. I said yes, but I mentioned moving in together would make it difficult for us to hide being together. He said he didn't want to get caught because he knew it would end badly. I lied to my parents, told them I was moving in with another girl for a roommate, and was able to get out of the house with only a few questions asked.<br><br>2 years later, we were able to afford a house. We decided it'd be best to move to a new part of town and keep our relationship a secret for now. When my parents asked about my new housemate, I lied and said I was still living with my old roommate. She's a good friend of mine, so she agreed to do it.<br><br>At one point, I got pregnant. I had a miscarriage. My brother and I were both worried that our parents would find out about it. They did, however, they thought the father was some guy I met who was a one night stand. I lied and told them it was true.<br><br>Long story short, I love my relationship with my brother. We'd also love to have a child together. I'd never want a child with anyone else. My brother is the only man I truly love.