I (29F) just brought up the subject of incest with my brother (28M)

I am the only child.<br><br>I have a bff (38m) that is like a brother to me. He even used to wear my prom dress, during our prom weekend stay at the hotel. I even had a “real brother experience” when we were hanging out and went into a restaurant, while the waitress called us from the entrance saying “Brother and sister table for two, please follow me.”<br><br>I also have a real brother who is 28 (I am 29) from a different dad. He is always busy with work. I keep in touch with him from time to time, but I never really spent time with him because he is so far away (and because I have a bff that is like a brother to me). <br><br>My real brother has asked me to connect on various social media platforms (like Instagram or TikTok), so he could send me links or videos that he finds interesting, because he is too busy to text from time to time.<br><br>Since he is 28 and I am 29, I thought that we could have an interesting conversation (even if he has asked me to connect on social media, from time to time).<br><br>So I sent him the link to a tiktok video that I found interesting, (involving a girl and a bff who is like a brother to her, but brought up the subject of incest in a funny way, because both were pretty drunk), and preceded the link with “Brother and sister content”<br><br>He asked me to watch the video, because he was too busy to sit in from of a computer and that we could talk on the phone. I did, and called him to talk about it. He was in his car, while I was on foot, during our phone call. So we were both distracted. <br><br>He opened the conversation by saying “So nice, you are visiting the family content”. <br><br>I said “What is that” and then he told me that he meant to say “Brother and sister content” (like I said on the social media platform, before I sent the link to the video). <br><br>I was mumbled by him calling me “family content”, which I thought was pretty kink. And I tell him “Huh? The video was linked as brother and sister content, not family content.”, because I thought that there had been a misunderstanding.<br><br>He repeats (in a sad tone) “I meant brother and sister content. So nice, you are visiting the brother and sister content.”.<br><br>I tell him “The girl in the video is drunk, but nice. I like it.<br><br>Then he says “I like it too.” (which I found pretty kink too).<br><br>He repeats “what do you think of the video?”. I say “It’s nice. I like it.”, while also saying that we should stop talking, because I think that we are speaking of very different things.<br><br>Then he says “I know that we are speaking of very different things.” And repeats “what do you think of the video?”<br><br>I say “I like it, but I don’t know why, because it’s awkward and weird”. I also say that we should stop the conversation, before it gets weirder. <br><br>He insists, so I say “I’m drunk, and you are drunk on something, but I don’t want to know what it is.”<br><br>Because I thought that everything that had been going on the conversation, was pretty kink. <br><br>I like my brother though, and I just wanted to get to know him a little better. And I thought that this video could give us a conversation starter, to talk about a subject that is funny without being too deep (which is a subject that I definitely would not touch with my brother, because he is too busy).<br><br>And I was just thinking of the video as a conversation starter, before I called him.<br><br>But here’s the thing. I have a crush on my brother and I would like to be with him even if I know that he is too busy to be with anyone, let alone a sibling.<br><br>But I don’t know what to do.<br><br>Help me. Thanks.<br><br>Edit: I’m adding that my brother is also married and has a baby. But he doesn’t spend quality time with his family, because he is too busy with his job.