My ex gf who I broke up with almost 9 years ago is currently going through a very public mental breakdown

My ex gf who I broke up with almost 9 years ago was a very smart and ambitious person. She was an Ivy League grad who was well on her way to becoming a very successful surgeon. During the time we were together, I had a sense that something was wrong with her but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. She’s very beautiful with long red hair, blue eyes, and a petite figure. She had a very bubbly and outgoing personality, was very charismatic, and very extroverted. She was also very fun to be around.<br><br>We started dating and everything went well. She was perfect for the first month of us dating. She was very attentive, very caring, very thoughtful, very loving, made me feel like I was on cloud 9 every time we were together. But I started noticing that she didn’t like anything that wasn’t perfect. She was very hard on herself and had very high expectations for herself. She would get mad at herself for making very small mistakes. She was very hard on herself in regards to her studies and her career which I felt was unnecessary. I tried helping her but she didn’t want to be helped. And when we would do stuff together as a couple, she would get mad at the smallest little things. For example, we were at a restaurant and they accidentally gave her the wrong order. She had a very extreme overreaction and started yelling and berating the waiter for giving her the wrong order. I felt embarrassed and humiliated and tried helping her calm down. But she just kept getting more angry. She had a very hard time calming down whenever she got angry.<br><br>I started noticing that she would get angry very easily as well. If I said or did something that she didn’t like, she would blow up at me unexpectedly. But then after that, she would act like everything was fine. She had a very hard time expressing negative emotions. She only liked expressing positive emotions. I started noticing that she had a very hard time being vulnerable. She wouldn’t open up to me very much and had a very hard time when I tried opening up to her. She would shut me down every time I tried opening up. She didn’t like talking about negative or uncomfortable topics. She only liked talking about topics that were positive and uplifting. She would change the subject whenever I tried talking about negative topics.<br><br>After 3 months of dating her, I had enough. I broke up with her. I realized that she had a lot of problems that I couldn’t fix. She was in denial about how bad her mental health was. She refused to get help for herself and refused to take my advice. I was starting to feel like I needed to walk on eggshells around her in order to avoid her overreacting.<br><br>Ever since we broke up, I haven’t heard from her and I haven’t seen her. I don’t have any mutual friends with her and I don’t follow her on social media. I have no idea what she’s been up to.<br><br>A few days ago, I was out and about doing errands and saw her out in public. She looked like a completely different person. Her hair was shorter and darker, she was skinnier, and looked like she hadn’t slept for days. She looked like a completely different person. She didn’t see me and had no idea I was there. I wondered what she’s been up to all these years.<br><br>When I got home, I couldn’t get her out of my head. I was very curious about what she’s been up to and what her life has been like. I ended up looking her up on social media and saw that she’s in a lot of trouble. She’s gone through multiple failed marriages, multiple failed careers, she can’t seem to hold down a job, she’s been in and out of jail, she’s had multiple public mental breakdowns, and she’s just all over the place. She’s doing very poorly. I saw that 2 weeks ago, she had a public mental breakdown on a plane. Apparently she was on a plane and had a panic attack. She started screaming and had a very extreme overreaction. They had to escort her off the plane because she refused to calm down.<br><br>I was very shocked and caught off guard by seeing that she’s not doing very well. I had assumed that she would be very successful with her life. She was very smart and was well on her way to becoming a very successful surgeon. It’s very sad to see that she’s not doing very well. I do feel a bit responsible. I feel like I could have helped her. But I think that if I were to help her, I would have had to make huge sacrifices. I can see her dragging me down with her. She’s just too far gone to be saved.