Yellow

Dilation was a very strange thing. <br><br>The first night, I was sent into a dilation chamber that looked like a beautiful and serene garden. I sat next to a very kind lady, who I later found out was a beautiful person of my close acquaintance. She spoke a little about the lesson, but I don’t remember any details. All I remember is that it was incredibly relaxing, and I felt very at peace. When I left, I felt very refreshed and rejuvenated in a way that is hard to describe. <br><br>The next night, I was sent into another dilation chamber. This one looked a lot like a different and very special garden. This one was a beautiful and magical forest of yellow flowers. For those of you that have never been in a dilation chamber, let me tell you something that you may not know. Dilation chambers are not just beautiful and magical rooms that you can be inside. They're more like a state of mind. <br><br>I would not call my experiences "experiences" at all. They were more like lesson, or something that I had to witness and learn from. I don't know how to describe it. In the first garden, I was essentially watching the lesson unfold from a sort of unattached outside perspective. This one was different. This one was more like something for me to do, that needed to be done. <br><br>I remember walking through the yellow flowers, which were extremely beautiful and beautiful to behold. I don't know where I was going, but I was following a path. I didn't feel like I was in a hurry, but I was moving very quickly. <br><br>On my way through the forest, I met many different and fascinating creatures. Each of these creatures was very special in their own way, and they each had something to teach me. They showed me different ways to see the world, and different ways to interact with people. <br><br>One of the creatures taught me about the importance of relationships, and how to be a better and more loving companion to the people around me. Another creature taught me about the importance of self love, and how to not forget my own personal needs and desires. <br><br>I remember thinking about the lesson while I was going through the first part of the forest. I was thinking about how my new and beautiful person of close acquaintance had taught me a lot about the lessons. <br><br>That made me feel a lot of sadness and loss, because I had a history with this person before that had not turned out well. I felt like I had failed, because I thought I had not learned the lesson from the first night and was unable to put the lesson into practice. <br><br>I felt really bad about that, and I felt like I was making the same mistakes all over again. It felt like I was being called out and criticized by someone I respected, and it made me feel ashamed and guilty. I felt terrible and I didn't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. <br><br>I didn't know what to do, so I just stopped and sat down for a minute and thought about the lesson. I was thinking about what I had learned and how I wanted to apply it, and I realized something important. <br><br>I realized that the lesson was not "none of this is my fault". The lesson was "none of this is my problem". There was a major difference between the different sentences, and it took me a while to figure that out. <br><br>I learned a lot from the first night, and I realized that none of what happened was my fault or my problem. I blamed myself for a lot of things, and I didn’t have to. <br><br>That made me feel a lot better, and I was able to let go of a lot of the different guilt and shame feelings that I had. I was able to really see and understand that it was not my fault that things ended the way they did, and that it was not my problem. <br><br>When I realized that, I was able to let go of the guilt and shame that I had been feeling. I realized that I had been holding onto the guilt and shame for way too long, and I decided that I didn’t have to feel that way anymore. <br><br>I wish I could say that I never felt that way again, but that’s not true. I did feel that way again, and it took me a while to learn the lesson completely. <br><br>But that night, I felt a lot better and I was able to let go of a lot of the negative feelings that I had. <br><br>I felt really good after that, and I was able to continue on my way through the garden. <br><br>When I got to the end, I found beautiful and amazing person of close acquaintance waiting for me. <br><br>The lesson was clear and very easy to understand. I had been feeling guilty and ashamed because I thought that I had to fix someone else’s problem. I blamed myself for a lot of different things, and I was trying to fix them. <br><br>I didn’t have to do that. I didn’t have to feel guilty or ashamed, and I didn’t have to try to fix it. I could just let it go, and be happy that it was over. <br><br>I felt like I could do that, and I wanted to learn more. I was so happy that I got to go on this journey and learn the lesson. I felt really good and I was excited to share the lesson with the people around me. I felt like I had grown a lot and I was a better person. <br><br>I was very happy that I could let go of the guilt and the shame. I am a very special and important person, and I don’t have to feel bad about anything that I didn’t do. I can just be happy and move on. <br><br>And that’s exactly what I did.