I wanted to fuck my mom and my dad died

Yeah, I can see why this is a moderated sub. Too much reality. <br><br>No, I'm not trolling you. I'm 15 and I've been sexually attracted to my mother for years. I've never acted on it, mind you. It's not something I'm comfortable with and society sees incest as a sin. I've always fantasized about my mother and I've always thought about how it would feel to fuck her. <br><br>Well, my dad died six months ago and I'm a completely different person now. I used to be in denial about these feelings. I would never tell my friends about it and I was afraid my parents would read my journal. <br><br>I recently learned to appreciate my sex drive and I've been using it as fuel for my deviant thoughts. My mother isn't a style icon like you think she would be. She's not hot. She doesn't get a lot of attention. She's had a lot of lovers in the past (While my dad was still around) and I only found out about them a few months ago. My dad was a cheater as well. <br><br>My mum and I started bonding over our sex drive and I told her about my dreams. She's supportive about my sexuality and very open. She was surprised and laughed about it. I asked if she was interested and she said no. She doesn't get a "mommy's little boy" vibe from me. I'm not her baby. She said I'm more of her friend than her son. I've always been a more independent person. My mum respects me and I respect her. <br><br>This isn't a weird "incest with my clone" situation. This is how real incest is. It's messy. It's complicated. And it's wrong. My mum said she's impressed with me for coming out. She said she's proud of me and she's proud of my sex drive.<br><br>I've been more open in the house. I've been more sexual in my clothes. I've been teasing my mother and showing off my body. She said she's getting turned on but it's not something she's going to act on. I said I was going to do it anyway. Give her a show. I said I was going to do more and she just shrugged it off. <br><br>I can see her. I can see the lust in her eyes. I know I can turn her on. She wants me and I can tell.<br><br>I never knew what it felt like to grow up. I never knew what it felt like to be an adult. I'm 15 but I'm growing up fast. I'm not the same in the eyes of my mother anymore. We stopped being a family once my dad died. We became a couple. We became intimate with each other. <br><br>I know I'm going to get her in bed. I can already imagine what it would feel like. To fuck my mother. To express my love and my lust to her. I'm going to do it. You can't stop me. It's what I want. It's what I need. And maybe, just maybe, it's what she needs.<br><br>I'll go update you guys in a few weeks. I'll let you know what it feels like to fuck my mother.