Didn’t do it right, so I guess I’ll try tomorrow

I got some black tar heroin illegally, and I’m scared of it. I don’t know how to properly do it. I’ve been trying to figure it out all day. I went to the doctor and he said to just go to the hospital if I need help, go to a treatment center if I don’t want to do it anymore, and just generally not do it. I was expecting some info on dosage, safe use, safe handling and storage, but he offered none of that. I have research that indicates I need to use a needle, but I don’t have the best veins, especially not in my arms, so I don’t know how to get it in there. I’ve been poking myself for an hour but I can’t hit anything. <br><br>I was just gonna go to sleep, but I’m actually really scared now. I’m sitting on my bed, just staring at the heroin. I don’t know what to do with it. <br><br>I’m scared, and I don’t know what to do, and I just wanna feel better. I don’t wanna go to treatment. I don’t wanna go to the hospital. I know they’ll just treat me like a junkie and I don’t wanna be treated like that. I don’t feel like a junkie. I just wanna feel better, and I feel like this is my only option, but I don’t know how to do it safely, or properly. <br><br>I’m scared, and a little upset. I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’ll just sleep on it, and try again in the morning.