The worst part about dating is self-disgust.

Yesterday I went out to dinner with a girl and she invited me to her place afterwards, her dad was out of town. I went, and then realized that I was getting off on her. So we had sex, and 3 days later she dropped me like a hot potato. <br><br>The worst part was not getting dropped, it was getting self-disgusted after that. The fact that i got off 3 days ago and now i was about to delete all of my dating apps and focus on my hobbies and studies. Why the fuck do i self-disgust myself that much? Because women are piece of shit? It's enough to make a man lose his sanity. Everytime i hook up with one of them and she drops me, self-disgust overcomes me. Everytime i find out that they are cheating on me, i get self-disgusted. I was about to get tubby for 8 months because 2 of them dropped me, and then i lost 25 pounds. self-disgust overcomes me everytime and i sink lower than the lowest of the lows.<br><br>The fact that they know they can manipulate us makes us doubt everything in the world. Everytime i see a piece of shit woman getting dropped by her partner, all i think is "Men are disgusting". Everytime i see a woman doing something good, i think "Women aren't bad, they're just self-centered". I have lost my sanity. I have been self-disgusting myself for 3 years straight. I'm not the only one right, I'm not the only one that feels like this, I'm not the only one that has lost his sanity. Everytime i hook up with one of them i sink in depression and start gaining weight. self-disgust overcomes me. I don't know what to do anymore. Everytime i hook up with one of them i feel as if i should just become a monk and isolate myself from society.