I had the greatest weekend of my life and I’m feeling so happy and proud of myself.

I had only met someone online once and it didn’t go the way we both wanted, but this past weekend was the real deal and I’m feeling so happy and proud of myself for doing what I did.<br>I met a friend on a website and hit it off. They weren’t looking for a polyg relationship, but I felt like we had something so strong that I didn’t want to let it go. I was surprised by how open they were about their sexuality and how comfortable and confident they were in themselves. So after chatting they suggested we meet in person and I was definitely feeling apprehensive, but they really helped me through it and I’m so glad they did. I thought we were only meeting for coffee and making a day of it, but they had a surprise for me. They showed up to the hotel I was staying at and we spent the day in bed together. I had never been in bed with anyone before, let alone someone I’d just met, but they were just so kind and gentle and patient and made everything so easy. They asked me if we could “do the deed” and I told them that I was okay physically but I was still a virgin mentally. We waited until I felt ready. I’d never felt comfortable enough around anyone before to let myself go, but I felt so good around this person. After some time they asked me again and I told them I was still working on it. I was starting to think that they were lying about who they were, but then they told me they were feeling a little insecure about their weight and I thought “oh shit, is that why I’m feeling this way?”. We talked a little bit about it and they asked me if I could help them feel better. I remembered something I’d read online about how people like me feel so good when we can let our partner feel good. I got to work and it was like nothing I’d ever felt before. It was like pure energy flowing through my body. I’d never been so present in a moment. I felt like I was giving them all of my energy and they had some energy to give back to me. I loved the way they looked at me with their eyes closed. Like they were touching something deep within themselves. The way the light from their phone lit up their face. I felt like I was giving them my all. I loved the way their skin felt. I could see and feel their happiness and it just made me feel so good. I feel like I can be myself around them and they accept me for who I am. I think that’s why this whole experience went so well. I know I’m a good person and I don’t care if anyone judges me for this. It felt so good and I’m so happy and I think that’s what matters. I’m not a little girl anymore. I’m a woman now and I did this by myself.