I've seen too many things in my life already that I can't explain.

I've seen too many things in my life already that I can't explain.<br><br>I've seen people running away after knocking at my door. I've seen people immediately hang up the phone after realizing they've reached the wrong number. I've seen people walking in the street and turning around as soon as they notice me.<br><br>I've seen men and women crying in the supermarket. I've seen someone giving their last dollar to another. I've seen a guy getting out of his car during rush hour to apologize to another driver, from his window to his, for almost hitting his car.<br><br>I've seen parents loving their kids and kids loving their pets. I've seen soldiers holding onto the hands of their parents who are afraid to let them go to war and never come back. I've seen kids holding onto the hands of their terminally sick parents as well.<br><br>I've seen a million things that I can't or don't want to explain.<br><br>I've seen the best of humanity.<br><br>I've seen the worst of it.<br><br>I've seen God.<br><br>I've seen the devil.<br><br>I've seen death and I wish I could say I've seen life.<br><br>I can't fully explain why I don't want to die. I don't even know why we live.<br><br>I just know that, whatever it is, I want to see it all.<br><br>It's been probably ten years since I've wanted to commit suicide. That's when life started to truly show itself to me. I was 17.<br><br>I still want to die.<br><br>But I want to see more.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I've seen too many things in my life already that I can't explain.