I am shaken

My (22m) sister (18f) and I have always been close. I didn’t think that there could be anything that could change that. I’ve always loved her. I’ve always felt a connection with her that I don’t think we can ever break. Even when we were children and fought. Even when I saw her cry. My heart has always hurt for her. I’ve always cared. <br><br>And now I don’t think I ever can again. <br><br>I was shaken. I was floored. I was blindsided. I never saw this coming. I never thought it would happen. But today….<br><br>I caught my sister. She was the one who was cheating. I never thought my sister would do that to me. I never thought she would cheat on her boyfriend. I never thought she would do that to me. I never thought she would lie to me. I never thought she would do that to me. I never thought she would hurt me. I never thought she would do that. <br><br>He was her boyfriend. He was her boyfriend for years. He was her first. He was her one and only. He was her everything. But I never thought she would do this to him. I never thought she was capable of hurting him. I never thought she was capable of hurting him. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. <br><br>I never thought she would do this to herself. I never thought she would hurt herself. I never thought she would do this to herself. I never thought she would hurt herself. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would hurt herself. I never thought she would do this to herself. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable of hurting herself. I never thought she was capable of hurting herself. I never thought she would do this to herself. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable of hurting herself. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable of hurting herself. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable of hurting herself. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she was capable. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. I never thought she would do this. <br><br>And now….<br><br>I don’t ever think I can trust her again. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t think I can ever trust her again. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her. <br><br>I don’t ever think I can trust her. I don’t ever think I can trust her.