It's 9 in the morning and I want to die

I have taught 1 class and have parent teacher conferences after school today. I'm sweating. I'm shaking. I'm nauseous. I've had 3 cups of coffee already. I've chewed 6 pieces of nicotine gum. I am on the clock. I'm sweating. I've had 2 blood pressure pills. I have a meeting with a vice principal, an assistant principal, and 2 parents at the end of the day. I'm stressed. I'm scared. I'm on the clock. 8.5 hours until the meeting. I feel like I might pass out. I'm sweating. My blood pressure is still high. I want to die right now. 8 hours and 31 minutes. Why can't I just die right now??? Have to survive until 4:00. 8 hours and 30 minutes. 1 hour until my next class. Ok I can get through 1 class. I have to take a shit but the bathrooms are locked. It was nice knowing you all. 8 hours and 27 minutes.